Greatest Fear?

[Foxfire]

We all have fears, so what are yours and why? :nod: Discuss them here.

I've only got one fear, nothing scares me except this. Snakes, Spiders, bugs, etc., have no control over me and I can always be around them. After all my older brother has a snake, he's probably 13 years old.

But anyway my greatest fear is losing the people I love whether to death or some other circumstance. I put up a tough facade but its my way of protecting myself. I'm a force to be reckoned with my sharp -- witty remarks or the force and strength I possess. However, underneath is someone whose passionately emotional and vulnerable. So those who are close to me, remain in my heart even after a fall out. I'm afraid of being alone in the world and it bugs me. I enjoy being around others, a people person but I'm best with Jess, my family, and my friends. I feel without them I'd be nothing.

The second fear I possess, although it hardly bothers me unless I'm near water is drowning. I've never learned how to swim, so when I'm near water I get a little anxious. But for the most part I avoid water that's deeper then 5 feet or so.

Other then that I'm difficult to break through fears. When I was younger, I used to be scared of the dark. But now I thrive for it and the night. :nod:

 

[Oblivion]

Hm, Greatest Fear? I probably have several, but the ones that come to mind at the moment are...

Drowning- This seem's to be a huge Fear for most people, and it's kind of 'cliche', but when I was real little, maybe around the time I was 4/5, or somewhere around there- I was playing in the Ocean with my aunt, and keep in mind- when I was younger; I was NEVER very strong or heavy (I'm still pretty light now, although not weak ) - and I believe I was with my cousin Justin; and a huge wave hit us, and since he was older- he was able to get out of it- but when the backdraft or what ever you feel when the water tries to pull you back out to sea, got me. And I nearly got sucked out into the middle of the ocean until I grabbed some random person's leg and held on until my cousin came and got me.

So needless to say I'm not big on the ocean- if I want to swim, a nice pool is MORE then enough for me ^_^. Seeing I love the water, it's just the Ocean that freaks the hell out of me, and getting sucked into it and drowning. *Shudders*

Next up is- Being Alone- I've NEVER been able to go along without my friends and family with me, I hate being alone and not surrounded by people; I used to be in constant need of attention, but although thats not the case ANYMORE, I still can't stand the fact of having no friends or family that really love me. I used to have issues with feeling like I was being neglected or useless with my Mom; I felt like everyone could careless about me. But eventhough I got over that, and am fine now - there's still the 'what if' echoing in the back of my mind, why I can't stand people at school who make fun of other people that don't have as many friends as they do, I was fortunate enough to become one of the 'Well liked' kids in school, so I have ton's of friends from differrent cliques, but theres always the factor of 'what if I had no friends?' that bugs me from time to time. So needless to say, a huge fear of mine is being alone.

Other then that...I can't think of anything else, I didn't grow up in the best of neighborhoods when I was younger, so I kind of had to learn how to get over my fear's and 'toughen up' along time ago; so I don't really have much 'Great Fear's' that I'm still worried about, at least not any that I can think of at the moment. If I think of anymore, I'll probably edit them in later.

 

[MorningStar]

I don't like to fear things related to people, I guess because I figure its not really anything I can control.

What I do fear though, is burning. Electrocution. I used to watch all those old mental asylum things and they gave me a fear for life. I used to go to bed at night and stare at my plug sockets in some kind of fear that they were going to burst into flame and burn me down while i slept. It got to the point where I either had to get over my fear, or be commited for life.

Okay, this is going to sound like a really odd and irrational fear. But I'm afraid of crucifixes. My family are scarily religious, and my nana and grandad's room always terrified me because it was like a cult shrine. I think it all stemmed from when I watched Amityville horror when I was maybe 5/6 years old. The upside down blackened crucifix and all. Now I have a crucifix on my bedroom wall above my bed and I'm not allowed to take it down, but it scares me to the extent where I won't even look at it in my peripheral vision unless I can't help it. I guess I'm somehow... I don't know... it just scares me

 

[Nora Charles]

I think my worst fear is ending up alone and unloved. Not so much needing someone physically right beside me, but that friends and family will all forget me. I'm not quite sure where that comes from, but it's always been there.

Have to say, though, June Bugs run a close second. *shudders*

 

[Tempest]

Haha...I have one of those above my bed at home as well, my stupid mother thinks having a 10lb metal balls and chain planted on a wall is going to do anything to help me be "safer" (no offence for any very religious people on the board). I used to be afraid of spiders, but I've gotten over it the some years ago...they don't bother me that much...but I still hate bugs lmao. I think I only have two main fears...nothing else really bothers me like the dark, death etc. lol.

Fish - Yes...you heard me, I'm afraid of fish...And I don't mean like cute little goldfish that swim around in circles in your fishbowl, I mean huge ass snappers that like to eat your toes lol. My story is basically like Kev's lol. We were back home in the Azores for about 3 months and the whole 'family' decided to take a trip to the coast house someone had and my cousins took me out to go swimming and I was like 5 at the time lmao (even though I'm a naturally great swimmer - my friends call my flipper lol - i wasn't that good at the time lmao) and one of them was holding me in the water while I flapped about lol and then decided to let go and see how I'd do...Well I just kept going, being sucked in by the tide then a wave tumbled over me and I went under and all I saw were friggen ass fish swimming all around me and I swear to the goddess I thought I was going to be eaten alive. I freaked out and started splashing around till my cousin got me LOL. Then later on in another part of the ocean on another island, me and a few other kids were chased by a hammerhead...one of the most frightening events ever lmao. Ever since then I get really squimish when I have to go swimming in the sea with lots of fish around...iiiick lol.

Being alone - Probably the board's most popular lol. I've always been afraid of being alone, physically and emotionally. I've never had a family and still don't, as much as they both try to be sweet to me now that they're stuck at home alone with each other LOL now that's just some great entertainment there lol. I grew up in foster care with my uncles before my parents demanded to have me back...why the fuck for I don't understand cuz one was never home and the other was rather slap happy x.x My brother was kicked out at 18 (when I was 5) so I ended up getting the short leash of my "dad's" temper all the time, whether I deserved it or not. He wasn't drunk or anything, that's just how he got his kicks...from whether one of his poker cards was bent to the picture I dust three times to make him happy wasn't centered, he just liked to grab anything and start beating away. He'd purposely lock me outdoors when I was playing so that I'd have to go all the way around the house to get in when I needed to use the bathroom and obviously i've had had my accident by then and he'd just feel the need to check and whip out the belt for being so "dirty"...or dropping one damn lousy egg while taking it to my mom...like who the hell has never done that when they're LITTLE?! But yeah, as much as I'm concerned, I've never had nor ever will have a "father", that abortion-woman killing freak (he's part of the reason I don't like abortion). My mom used to sexually harass me when I was younger...she stopped when I started hitting back while trying to free myself and carrying butcher knives with me to my room. I mostly grew up with my brother's gang after that when I was in my early teens...anything to get out of the house, stay late at school, etc. I used to be locked in my room when I was younger too, no power, no leaving. Couldn't have friends over couldn't go to their houses...not like I had any to start with. I was always teased in elementary school for being smart, fat, and ugly. That plus all the names in the book and more my "dads" dashed out along with my mom's constant need to "fix my face and body" hasn't helped much either. I'm 18 now and they still feel the need to give me a 10o clock curfew and treat me like shit...even though technically I'm not allowed to be in the house alone with the asshole because of his abuse record which is why I need to find friend's houses to stay at during breaks. I always felt left out growing up, no one liked me (friends, family etc.), I never got to do anything the other kids were doing (carving pumpkins, disneyland, getting a xmas tree, etc.) I always felt alone and miserable, then in high school I got to know more people and various other cliques and I was always active and helping out in whatever I can, and it always shocked me that all these random people would say hi to me that I never knew but yet they'd all heard/seen me at some point in time lol. Was really weird. I couldn't stand being around couples, drove me nuts. I hated having to sit there and watch friends make out and crap, ewwie x.x Just cuz I've had engrained in my head by my parents that I'd never find anyone because I was too ugly and no one liked me. I've never been told "i love you" by anyone, not even my parents, I never got presents from people but my mom who felt she needed to get us shit so we'd feel in debt to her...she tries too hard now that she wouldn't even stay at home on xmas when we were younger, it makes no sense to me lmao. So I got used to being by myself and quite enjoy it a lot most of the times...just thinking, not having other people screaming around you, just alone and at peace for a few moments. Then at other times I just need to be around people, to feel like people actually like me or that I have some kind of friends whether they like me or not, just to feel like i'm important some how. Everyone always tells me I'm so "strong" for having made it through but it's had so much of a psychological impact on me it's insane. I hardly let people get close to me, I still have imaginary friends and talk to people I see that other's dont because they help me work out my problems(loss of childhood trying to grow out syndrome lol), I can't talk positive about myself, I look in the mirror and see a gross blob, I always downtalk myself for getting B's for grades cuz they weren't good enough for my parents and made me stupid...I've recently gotten over my fear of being around guys cuz of my "dad" but then it always bugs me how I can't be normal around them (especially strangers) cuz I'll be jumpy or try to impress them so that hopefully they'll actually like me, and while I won't admit it verbally lmao, I am desperate to find a guy, I just see couples and wonder why I can't be like that and have someone to hold onto for support, or why people/friends don't come visit me in my dorm or invite me anywhere. Yeah, so that's my spiel on that...probably doesn't make sense but oh well lol. I shall grow up to be 98, alone with 98 rabid cannibal cats ready to eat the next person that bugs me LOL.

 

[Dominant Woman]

My biggest fear is that my children's father and I will die before my children are old enough to be out on their own and take care of themselves. There's no one on either side of the family that I would feel comfortable having raising our children.

 

[Prophet]

My Fears:

The Dark: As a young kid I was terribly afraid of the dark. So much so that I would look at my room at now in certain spots and they would just darken to the point where I couldn't see things. I don't like not knowing what is going on and just being in the dark freaked me out, and I was actually put on medication for it, it was so bad, but now I am completely good and fine

Birds: I know this sounds strange, but birds really freak me out. If I am walking down the street and like I hear a flock of birds taking off, even if it's not near me, I flinch and duck like they are going right over my head. I just think birds are too humanized. They aren't afraid of humans and they just go right up to them, and they have this weird bird language they talk in. I just am terrified of birds, all birds big and small. I don't like being near them.

Robbery: This fear used to be really bad but it has gotten a lot better over the year. I don't know, I am terrified of someone breaking into my house. Just the thought of someone knowing where I am, and me not knowing where they are, gives me the creeps. When I was a kid I would wake up EVERY night thinking that someone was breaking into the house, and I just couldn't sleep. Even know if it is daytime and I am home alone, I lock my door lol..

 

[bknot1]

wow..i cant think of any kid of fear...other then having fear get gettin some bad coochie...LOL ..i dont know maybe being alone..i have a hard time being alone..and i think that is my greatest fear..

 

[Persephone]

Spiders. Plan and simple. Just spiders. They are vial creatures that are disgusting, horrible, and need to die a painful death. I'm not "scared" of them as in "oh! ew! a spider! kill it". I'm actually phobic of them. I've had many cases where I would start to have a panic attack in the presents of a spider. I was never phobic of them until I was 13, then I went to kill this fat spider my mom asked me to kill, and when I hit it, millions of baby spiders exploded out of it. After that, I can't go near them, see them, or have anything that has more LEGS than them be near me. Otherwise i'll start to freak out. lol. So yeah, spiders.

 

[Karma]

wow..i cant think of any kid of fear...other then having fear get gettin some bad coochie...LOL ..i dont know maybe being alone..i have a hard time being alone..and i think that is my greatest fear..

LOL you are some kind of insane!:stupid: LOL

and Sammi, i remember when you told me that story...that totally grossed me out LOL...it reminded me of something from ALIEN lol!

my biggest phobia is that of snakes...ophidiophobia. i cannot even look at a snake on television without getting nervous and shakey. im TERRIFIED of those things. Im also terrified of worms:igitt: and bees... :worry:

 

[Persephone]

Lol yeah...normally when I tell the story people freak out. ;x Icckkk.....

 

[Black Widow]

I know this sounds crazy... but I'm really not afraid of much. I'm a rather intrepid person... snakes, bugs, rodents dont bother me. I've never had a problem with spiders. I was never afraid of the dark.. or clowns... I swim like a fish. I have no problem being alone, solitude was always quiet and peaceful for me, i grew up with FIVE siblings... so privacy and alone time was rare and coveted. I live alone now... and when i go back to visit my family.. its like sensory OVERLOAD. that household is so BUSY... its hard to believe i was ever used to that.

I'm not especially FOND of Pain, i like it about as much as Farrah likes bugs... but I'll deal with it. I can't say i like the idea of being raped or tortured... but im such a stubborn hardass, lol, I'd fight back like hell hath no fury. I'm the "I'm taking you down with me, asshole" type of person. I'm not afraid of dying... I'd rather it be quick, lol. I've always maintained that death is EASY.... its life that's so damned difficult sometimes. With all that said... I suppose my biggest 'fear' by default is losing one of my family members. i love my sisters and my parents and yes, even my asshole brother [] to death... and if i had the chance... i'd give my life to save theirs... because i wholeheartedly believe its a hell of a lot easier to leave than to be left behind. :nod:

 

[Shadowsfall]

Growing up I was seriously afraid of clowns... I saw IT and it terrified the hell out of me. (The only "horror" movie I was ever afraid of) I'd have dreams about clowns and wake up hyperventalating.

Now my only real fears are losing someone I care about, not being good enough or successful enough to take care of my fiance, and snakes although they don't bother me much as long as they're far enough away from me or in a cage.

 

[Black Widow]

LOL, well hell, im just a simple country girl a snake could be IN MY LAP... and as long as it doesnt BITE TO KILL me... i wouldnt mind. they're just animals, lol. My sister and i used to catch the garter snakes whenever we saw them... i remember a vivid green one... nearly THREE feet long... that was the biggest we ever caught. there was once a HUGE black one in the back yard, it was like 5 or 6 feet... Daddy chopped its head off with a shovel before we could see it... he was grilling out there, lol, beat us to it.