The Parthenon- Alycia's suite
Cameron said:
I apologize...you DO have a sense for detail and an uncanny ability to read people's body language, but my very nature can allow me to read the emotions behind even the most TRAINED and practiced movements and gestures....Go on...
You know...it was your REFLEX of wanting to play "i'm having the last word" with me those nights at your villa on Pacific Pallisades, when I was helping you plan your Will & the execution of your Estate, that lead us to our FIRST...unexpected...
:: Eyeing Cameron for a moment like a hungry bird of prey as she smirked a bit::
little TRYST!
:: Alycia broke her gaze on Cameron as she took another long drink of her bottled water::
Cameron said:
"Alycia..who among us ISN'T a wolf? Every single one of us walks around this world looking as a human and every SINGLE one of us has the potential to do extraordinarily pervase and depraved things.
Maybe so, but not all of us REVELED in that. Not all of us viewed "extraordinarly perverse & depraved" behavior as a HALLMARK OF CHARM or an ACCEPTABLE display of behavior. That would be where your precious Haleigh DIFFERS from most of us.
:: He wanted to retort? That was fine. He had every reason and RIGHT to. Alycia welcomed the open and honest responses. This went BEYOND her impulses as a ball busting lawer and former ADA, this was about the fact that in order for THEM to BE OKAY, as Cameron hoped they would, THIS conversation needed to happen, right now and it needed to be RESOLVED so that he could go forward with a clear mind and SHE would not let suspicion and resentment build up in her. ::
:: Alycia pulls the chair from the computer desk near by and rolls it over to the foot of the bed, sitting in it and once again, fixing her hazel eyes on Cameron as he began to expand with passion and conviction.::
:: Alycia couldn't help herself as she sat there in her white silk mini robe, crossing her long, smooth legs at the knee.::
Remember that scene in Basic Instinct? When Sharon Stone was sitting in a chair like this, in her white outfit, crossing...
and UNCROSSING
...her legs?
:: She slowly uncrosses her legs, mimicking the move Sharon Stone did in that INFAMOUS scene, watching as Cameron was suitably distracted for a moment, KNOWING he enjoyed "the view" but wanting her to let him finish!::
I'm sorry...I just had to mention that. Right now, I feel kind of like her, as I watch you!
:: She winked at Cameron as she let him continue::
Cameron said:
The way you speak now makes me scared that BECAUSE there is tension between you, that it will lead you more easily down a path of thinking that could be detrimental..to US...And if there is anybody who is more guilty of dissappearing for six months at a time it's ME, so if you were to be mad at anybody on The Six for that..be mad at ME...
You've nothing to fear...from ME. There's no "tension" between US (she & haleigh) because there is no "US". we're NOT friends....not anymore.
:: the playful glint in her eyes faded as she bowed her head for a moment. the bitterness in her heart flared with each beat in that passing moment before she sat up and looked at Cameron once more::
We are colleagues. Her behavior at Melrose Place and even last night told me that's all she wanted...or was capable of handling and so I will take her at her measure.
You DO have a special history with Haleigh. I dont think anyone would deny or challenge that. But it's HISTORY. Not your PRESENT. You two haven't been very close for SOME TIME now.
You needed her THEN out of necessity. In a situation like that!? WHO WOULDN'T find themselves bonding with the only person in a group that was NOT trying to kill them or see them destroyed? As you yourself just said...we ARE human!
But Cameron, that NEED isn't there anymore. Not like THAT. You've come QUITE FAR!
You're a big boy and you know you can ...and WILL have to clean up messes you make, whether personal OR professional. SHE knows that too about herself.
You're always going to have a special place and feeling for her because she was VITAL in your early days of the Six. But at the same time, the two of you ALSO FED off of each other's negativity and inappropriate behavior. As the saying goes..."birds of a feather..."
Are you that same irrascible ASSHOLE you were then? If you were...I wouldn't be in this hotel. I wouldn't have had you in my bed last night. I wouldn't be able to LOOK at you with anticipation each time I see you because I've known...and BROKEN plenty of men like how you once WERE. WERE, Cameron. Not ARE.
The same CAN'T be said about HER.
Cameron said:
Cameron got up from the bed and pulled Alycia closer to him upon her words of Bishop and the aftermath that followed that. He hadn't been there and although one part of him desperately wishes he COULD have been there, feeling as if he COULD have changed things, another part of him was almost...."glad" to have been trapped in the Astral Plane. He sighed heavily as he took a seat in one of the morning chairs beside the bed.
"Alycia..this is the thing about Haleigh..she IS who she is...and she's never been anything but. Out of every single person on this team, she has been the most consistent. Even when we look through and have seen other timelines, you don't see a Haleigh that isn't loyal to this group, whether she died in the process or not. She's enigmatic...and POLARIZING, and BECAUSE she doesn't allow herself to connect to the people around her...it forces THEM to try and figure her out, try to rationalize HER reasoning..it creates a scenario where people attach attributes or characteristics to her that don't necessarily apply, in order to rationalize their feelings about her, or to better "order" her in their world...much of the backlash she receives is because people build her up in their heads and when she doesn't live up to that, they get incredibly let down...
People WANT to be her friend and WANT to be close to her simply for the fact that the feat in and of itself is nearly impossible...Just when you think you've got there...you HAVEN'T...it's infuriating...I KNOW this.
::Alycia noticeably FLINCHED as Cameron held on to her. If there was one thing an attorney either LOVED or HATED...it was a SOUND rebuttal, and Cameron may have just delivered that right now. Moreover, he could have been talking about JUST HER when it came to why Haleigh is so infuriating! He wasn't there at Melrose Place when she had her bittersweet reunion with the hybrid, HE didn't know exactly what happened and she hadn't told him the details, but he was speaking in a way that was so relevant to what had occurred! And he also unknowingly ECHOED something Delilah had said to her only hours later::
::FLASH!::
Oracle said:
<< Just over 24 hours ago, Melrose Place, courtyard>>
Delilah said:
Alycia stopped - and unlike most every other resident of Melrose Place would have been, she didn't go right to bitchy.
“Haleigh’s been a good friend to me through some bad times…and I just…feel the need to stick up for her. I think we all underestimate her. And also”
She took a gentle step closer to Alycia.
::The PRESENT conversation with Cameron...::
Cameron said:
But I also know...Haleigh has an incredible amount of respect for you..as a human being. As a woman and as an ally to this team...and just because she doesn't react in the way you WANT or EXPECT her to...it doesn't take any of that away. If you plan on moving forward at ALL with her..YOU'VE got to accept her for what she IS and NOT who you THINK she should be...
::FLASH!::
Oracle said:
<< Melrose Place, Courtyard, that same conversation between Delilah and Alycia>>
Alycia said:
:: Alycia gazed upon Delilah for a moment.::
Believe it or not, your defending Haleigh didn't bother or offend me. I REMEMBER you and your defense of Haleigh is right in line with who you are. You felt someone needed help and you did that.
Delilah, you think we UNDERestimate Haleigh?
::Shaking her head to the negative::
I think I OVERestimated her. or maybe I overestimated my so-called friendship with her...
Delilah, I thought Haleigh and I were FRIENDS.
When I saw her today, her reaction, her whole attitude toward me was...
:: Alycia paused for a moment::
Well it was rather HURTFUL to me and suddenly I realized what an idiot I must have been, thinking that we were friends. I may be an amazon, but I have feelings too.
Delilah said:
Delilah knew how easy it was to feel disliked by Haleigh, but also knew that it wasn’t true in this case.
“I do think we underestimate her. She wants to do good – she wants to help us all, whenever we need her. Her methods are….unorthodox. But the good intentions are there. She would die – or kill – for you Alycia. She IS your friend. It’s just, when her back is up, there’s no defusing her. She’s like a bomb going off. But she is a good person – even if SHE thinks she’s not.”
:: Delilah didn't just advocate for Haleigh, she displayed trust and certainty in a FRIEND. She ALSO believed that Haleigh cared for Alycia. Cameron was echoing the things that Delilah had said....THEY should know, right? Did Alycia trust THEM even if she didn't trust Haleigh? Why WAS it so difficult...so PERPLEXING to try to have some kind of relationship with that woman!?::
...someone else on the team said something quite similar to what you just said, just over 24 hours ago.
:: Sigh::
I don't like being made a fool of, Cameron. You know that. It should NOT be trickier than a puzzle, trying to be FRIENDS with someone. It just. should.NOT.
You ask me to ACCEPT her "enigmatic" ways? At what point does SHE accept that REAL relationships require REAL, CONSISTENT behavior and things like RECIPROCITY?!
You don't have to worry about me. I'm not going to DERAIL the team by having some gigantic grudge match/catfight with her. People CAN work together and not necessarily LIKE each other. Look at Ava and myself or Cass and Ava for that matter?
I can be a colleague of her's and enjoy a GREAT working/professional relationship. I will stand beside her in battle and fight to preserve her life just as she did mine without hesitation! But FRIENDSHIP and the GIFT of TRUST goes BEYOND professional courtesy or even team cohesion, Cameron.
All the REST of us have learned how to treat each other PROPERLY and CARE for one another, why can't SHE? and why is YOUR life and progress seemingly HINGED upon HER and what she might say or do?
Perhaps THIS...
:: gesturing between herself and Cameron::
ISN'T such a good idea? Maybe you AREN'T ready for someone who is about PROGRESS, EQUITABLE relationships and RECIPROCITY when it comes to relationships in a way that extends BEYOND the battle field or some situation of conflict?
Cameron said:
All I know is that two years ago, when I was in The Citadel..fighting for my life against MysTech...AND Morgan and Alison...
:: she was not going to be moved by this forever. OF COURSE Haleigh was his only ally at that time. As the saying goes..."game recognize game" and those two were WINNERS at being twisted assholes at that time::
That was as much your fault as it was theirs. On day one, you walked into Illustra, as their guest, being a DICK. You were accustomed to fucking people over back then, you and Haleigh BOTH. You weren't prepared to meet someone...let alone TWO people that could be just as nasty, if not MORESO than you. The fact that MYSTECH was looming over your lives...ALL of our lives, was almost a "minor detail" to the personal battles you were engaged in at that time...
:: Alycia said with the cold, analytical tone of an attorney cross examining a witness...she CAUGHT herself slipping into that mode just now due to her extreme agitation with HALEIGH and her facial expression softened as she stopped, bowed her head and covered her face with her hands for a moment::
Cameron said:
There was ONE person there that looked at me...up and down, and trusted me, and made a DEAL with me. That we would look out for each other...protect each other, be a united front. I wasn't the person I am now, that's for damn sure, but she never JUDGED me for it...and she NEVER stopped being on my side. That person was HALEIGH. No matter WHAT anybody thinks of how we acted back in the day, or what our actions CAUSED...SHE was able to see the good in me and I her...and honestly? There is nothing in this world that anybody can say that will make me think less of her...dissappointed, sure...Hurt? Maybe...but when my house of cards was falling down around me, SHE tried to pick those cards up and put them back together again. She's never spoke ill of me, she's never gone behind my back, she's NEVER intentionally hurt me..out of ANYBODY on this team, she's been my closest ally and partner in crime. Right or wrong, Alycia..Haleigh's been a friend, and NOT just to me. To ALL of them.."
Standing from the chair.
"And in light of the things that happened during The Blue Moon? I think it's important that ALL of us, take a look at the relationships around us and wonder whether or not what happened to Alison, Morgan and Delilah could happen to us..and what those CONSEQUENCES that these little "resentments" or "anger" could LEAD to..I think you owe it to yourself to have a conversation with her as well, Alycia...figure it out..because after all that we just went through, the time for letting things go or letting them FESTER is gone. We can't afford another scenario like this..."
:: She remained silent as she slowly sat back up and uncovered her face. He'd touched a nerve...he was
right and yet something
STILL felt so WRONG to her. It wasn't JEALOUSY, which is what she suspected HE thought it was the very thing that he and Delilah had spoken on with regard to trying to deal with Haleigh. SHE wanted to know at what point did that STOP!::
One definition of INSANITY is to try the same thing repeatedly, expecting different results. Whatever YOU want...NEED to do with Haleigh, that's YOUR decision. But what you're asking ME? That sounds INSANE to me! Why would I want to do that with her...AGAIN?
You tell me, Cameron, at what point does it become NOT about ME or anyone else, but about HER and HER hand in the way her relationships go? I will NOT kow tow to someone who goes through FARCES of friendship with the same LACK OF THOUGHT as they'd go through a fucking box of KLEENEX! At some point EVERYONE has to take some responsibility for what they do...REGARDLESS of who they are and if more than one person is having the SAME reaction to you? Maybe YOU'RE the one with the problem.
:: She abruptly stood up and walked away, turning her back to Cameron and wrapping her arms around herself as she no longer attempted to hide her contempt. If she was going to be WRONG, FINE. She'd lost battles in the courtroom and boardroom to some truly well played opponents and sometimes they were actually VALID in their position. BUT she was NOT going to be lead out into the deep water only to be left to DROWN in a false hope or some exercise in futility and if that meant closing the door on CAMERON as well? then so be it.::
Cameron said:
He moved over to Alycia and embraced her in a hug.
No.
:: She resisted him and pushed his hands away, keeping her back to him::
:: He was noticeably shaken by her rejecting him like this and could SENSE her distress. But he seemed DETERMINED to proove that he was right about Haleigh and about himself and Alycia. He approaches again, and even though he knows she could subdue him or worse with her physical strength, he takes hold of her and TURNS her to face him, now HOLDING her close to him. She doesnt resist. She doesnt look ANGRY, she looks rather haunted.::
Cameron said:
Cameron was between a rock and a hard place. He REALLY wanted to things to progress and move forward with Alycia and he knew that this required a great amount of honesty, considering how secrets had RUINED relationships in the past for members of The Six...the more honest they were, the more protected they would be...because nobody knew how long this truce between The Sisterhood would last, and he knew that once it ended...Diana would be gunning for them, twisting their thoughts and secrets and revealing them in big and hurtful ways.
While it may not have been the best time to bring everything up after such a nice and passionate evening, Cameron felt there was no time to waste. He needed to talk to Haleigh and he needed to make sure that Alycia was okay with it. He whispered into her ear softly.
"I really care about you, Alycia...and the whole reason I brought it up is because if you are going to be a bigger part of my life, if we are going to move forward..we have to be honest. And honestly? I DO value your opinion, and I DO care how my relationships with ANY of our teammates would effect you. Maybe that's immature, maybe that's giving you less credit than you deserve..but I don't want to hurt you..and I don't want to lose THIS....."
:: Alycia broke her gaze into his eyes, looking away and shutting them tightly for a moment, he gently turned her face back to his::
Cameron said:
He gestured his hands between them in a "you and me" motion with his fingers. He placed one hand on her shoulder and the other into her silk robe and onto her heart, which was beating fast.
"This MEANS something Alycia..."
He placed her hand on his chest, over his heart as well.
"We EFFECT each other...we give each other a CHARGE..and it feels really good..."
Cameron kissed her lips.
:: That was it, wasn't it? They DID give each other one hell of a charge. He stood his ground to her not because he wanted to be an asshole but because it was for something he BELIEVED in. Isn't that a hallmark of passion and conviction? things that SHE appreciated anyway? Both he, Delilah and probably a few of the others expressed belief and certainty in Haleigh...if she couldn't trust Haleigh...could she at least START with trusting THEM on this issue? She decided YES, she could::
:: She wrapped her arms around him, squeezing HIM and holding him close as she returned his kiss.::
Cameron said:
Yeah. We're good.
Cameron said:
He took a look at the clock and let out an audible grunt.
"Shit! I'm supposed to meet Delilah for brunch...and I'm late!"
Well you better get your ass in gear!
:: SLAPPING his ass just then.::
I'm sure Delilah is going to have some words for you about how it is the people she was trying to take a hiatus from are now once again right in front of her.
But really? She SHOULD be apart of what's going on for Blaze. WE'RE her family! We might not be blood...but we're HERE...however we can be.
Now...get out of here, you've upset me ENOUGH for one day and I'll be SURE to take it out on you LATER!
:: laughing a bit as she smiles knowingly at Cameron::
And GOOD LUCK, with Haleigh.
:: turning back to look at him as she was heading toward her master bath::
I mean that...
:: and with that, she disrobes as she disappears into her master bath to shower and prepare for her day::
:: Now alone with her thoughts, her mind churned, vacillating between the instinct to simply cut Haleigh OUT of her hurt and regard her as valued colleague and ally, NEVER as a trusted friend, AND that terrible, nagging little "voice" in her head saying that Cameron was right about her at LEAST having a conversation with Haleigh and seeing if in fact what he and Delilah say is TRUE. ::
:: She said she could trust THEM as a starting point, so perhaps talking to Haleigh would be a way to show that she was as serious about this as they were.::